Do what you have always wanted to do, be what you have always wished.

Mulla Nasrudin went with his friend to attend the funeral of a rich man. His friend was flabbergasted at the plush and luxury settings.
"Look at that coffin, it's made from sandalwood," he exclaimed, "and they have spent ten thousand gold coins on the decorations. See his dress, it's made from handwoven silk! They are putting precious stones, gems and pearls next to him. The tombstone is made from exquisite marble."
"Wow!" exclaimed Mulla, "now, that's life!"

Do not deprive yourself of the joys just because you are not fulfilling certain conditions others have placed on you. As long as you are not hurting anyone, you are good. Live! Do what you have always wanted to do, be what you have always wished. Give yourself a chance, do not be so hard on yourself, give it a try. Now is the perfect time, for perfection is simply a perspective, and 'now' the only real moment.

Go on! Say Yes to life. Break free. Discover your own truth.

Om Namah Shivay.